The end.... of my poly life.

So I MAY come back to blogging. MAY. depends on whether I can get fired up again in writing. My poly education has just ended. Shoutout to sabeana having her birthday sometime next week.

just a lil random talk about myself to start off while i sit here still basking in the fact I've finished my final Understanding Test for Advanced Materials. I'm also aching from my workout with NIC! kian fei and melvyn.

I've really lost touch on how to write a blog post. not that there were any rules set on how to blog, but this seems more like a conversational piece than a blog post doesn't it?

I've been analyzing various aspects of my personality, some too private to myself to share here, only a select few of my friends whom I've had, "heart to heart" talks with would know this. Heart to heart leh! excited not! hahahaa. (I think I need to stop using singlish and return to my old style of powderful england.)

I've realised I'm overly emotional (my own definition) and as previously stated in my older blog posts. I was too much of an idealist. An outlet, if psychologically and socially unhealthy one for me has always been humor. Specifically, insult and sarcasm. After a coupla' meditative hours and long conversations with myself. (signs of madness?) I believe I have anger management problems.

I dislike incompetancy, people without the drive to better themselves, poor diction (I know it can't be helped for some people, but you can learn, damzit.) whiny disillusioned girls, soppy emo boys, skinny ah bengs, (not that anyone really likes an ah beng in any form.) lame jokes (this can seriously depress me, I was depressed for a week cuz' of lame people killin' my sense of humour.) and hamsters. (beady eyed bastards)

And that's just a fraction of what can get me pissed off, even stuff as trivial as noisy breathing can sometimes set me off internally. I get occasional anger spikes that are strong enough to cause me to envision hitting the person in the face, repeatedly, with a spiked bat, encrusted with salt, set on fire. I've never acted on most of these anger spikes. (most) I believe I've made some headway in remedying this though. To the people who've seen me "hitting" nic and stuff. Those are jokes. If I were serious about hitting nic, we'd be having curry chicken now and playing mahjong. *shakes head in disappointment.*

My MCB (microbiology) faci once told me I portrayed a very deadpan and bored face, I gotta agree there, though excuse me if this sounds egoistic, I'm anything but boring.

I fear boredom.

I've got this urge to just skip off this topic on myself, and psychologically speaking, it's not healthy to repress urges. =p

FANTASY.

What if the world was totally under my power? with every aspect controlled by my will. Given enough time and knowledge to acclimate myself to the situation, I believe that I could end most problems, simply because I hold ultimate power and I will not succumb to greed, easy to say, hard to do a lot of you will definitely say. But think about it first, with everything in my power, what is there to hanker after?

I agree with jem, a coupla thousand criminals die, people I don't like die, in hilarious ways, (I'm thinking of lots of pianos and sky cranes[you can never go wrong with falling pianos]) I build a 100 room palace for myself with enforced nudity for all attractive women on palace grounds.

Ultimately, the world would benefit, I know this is a flimsy case but I ain't at my best right now, some elements for my argument for total power would be ensuring fair trade or elimination of money (impossible, I can't really fathom this working) and working in the "greater good" sense, There are mountains of milk powder stuck in warehouses all over the world, just because the owners cannot get a deal they want. Fair trade would eliminate that, but no. money must be made, see my vague point yet?

I'm rambling by this point, I may come back soon and write something up. In the meantime, guys, you wanna go? :)




Because I can
-Ryan Sohmer